The worst feeling is to feel that you are becoming someone you hate. Its shakes the very core of you. I have been staring at myself today in the mirror, thinking about how it feels to stand at the edge, the edge of losing yourself. Every turn, every trail, every path, every road in my mind leads back to the place where I don’t want to go. I never thought I will feel lost like this, but since it’s already happening, I need to wake my consciousness. If you are also feeling the same hop on with me and let’s get through this together.
I am sure everybody feels lost sometimes and the worst part is not knowing what the source of this feeling is. If you evaluate the situation you feel more suffocated. I suggest the best way out of this is write down whatever you are feeling and sort your thoughts. Give yourself some alone time, work on your passions, rethink about your perspective and the negative thoughts will eventually vanish. You might feel alone in this time because it’s not easy to break the routine. You will miss your friends, family or lover and this loneliness can affect you in many ways but you have to be strong. Question yourself, why are you doing this? What will be the end result? Is it worth it? If you feel the outcome of this self-evaluation is worth it, then go for it.
The important step to take is to clarify your thoughts and identifying the issue. It’s pivotal to find the reason behind your mood swings, anger, fear or whatever is bothering you. Human mind is very complex. We seek things, relationships, and luxuries and when we find them we start to forget how it felt to be without them. New needs arise and we start to look beyond what we have. You need to understand what is it you seek in life? Is it love, money, affection, pleasure, freedom or peace? Stick to your goals and don’t let anything come between them and you. Take a solo trip, listen to your favorite music, read, sleep and most importantly think about your life. Think about your journey. You have come a long way and you have a long way to go, but just because you have lost your way for some time doesn’t mean you can’t get back on the right trail. Stop and breathe and follow the light of the stars. You know who you are and you need to get up and keep walking. I know my fears, but I also have the strength to face them. I am sure you have that courage too, you just have to look inside and find it.